Prelude 3.0 I don't know why I never told you I don't know why I never tried When we shed these bitter skins again All the reasons come to life But now it's over... I don't know why you never asked me I don't know why you never cared When we hide these little sins again All the reasons have to die But now it's over... No! -------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- The Blister Exists Bones in the water and dust in my lungs Absorbing archaic like a sponge The ultimate way is the way you control But can you stay if you detach your soul? Bury the present and squeeze out the past The ones you endear to never last Chemical burns and the animalistic I'm just another hardline pseudo-statistic Can you feel this? I'm dying to feel this Can you feel this? Blood on the paper and skin on my teeth Trying to commit to what's beneath To find the time is to lose the momentum You learn the lessons and immediately forget them Automatic and out of my reach Consult all the waste to find the key Minimal life and the polysyllabic I'm just another blank page - push the button, pull the rage Can you feel this? I'm dying to feel this Can you feel this? I am all, but what am I? Another number that isn't equal to any of you I control, but I comply Pick me apart, then pick up the pieces I'm uneven I am the damaged one All my life and the damage done Can you feel this? I'm dying to feel this Can you feel this? I am all, but what am I? Another number that isn't equal to any of you I control, but I comply Pick me apart, then pick up the pieces I'm uneven -------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Three Nil Chaos - it's just the beginning Every promise I made I'm rescinding Center mass in the middle of the monster I'm getting tired of drowning the constant cry for help - it's debatable The only reason that you love me is I'm hated by all Come on - Come see dysfunction I guess we're gonna leave it open for discussion Who am I? And where am I going? Maybe I'm looking in the wrong direction Maybe I'm looking for any direction This is not my war - This is not my fight This is something more - This is not my life (This is not my) Revolution (This is not my) Convolution (This is not my) Expectation (This is not my) Desperation Holed up, scarred and tamed for the hell of it Look at me - I'm the glorified malcontent Save me? Save this! All I gotta do is give up and all is forgiven I'm sick - Of being the butt of a cosmic joke And I don't get the punch line A million people lined up for miles To see the Great Big Mouth shut up and apologize This is not my war - This is not my fight This is something more - This is not my life (This is not my) Revolution (This is not my) Convolution (This is not my) Only reason to question why Today, I said goodbye! Goodbye! Oh I didn't need to leave to stay right here Today I said goodbye! I am the pariah (break me) I am the liar (save me) I can take anything (make me) Accuse me of everything (take me) Cut off the system (shape me) Deny my existence (waste me) I won't be afraid (try me) I won't be unmade (deny me) So come on - break it off Come on - buy the lie Come on - say it, say it Come on Say goodbye! Goodbye! Oh I didn't need to leave to stay right here Today I said goodbye! Goodbye! Oh I didn't need to leave to stay right here Today I said goodbye! -------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Duality I push my fingers into my eyes It's the only thing that slowly stops the ache But it's made of all the things I have to take Jesus it never ends, it works it's way inside If the pain goes on... I have screamed until my veins collapsed I've waited as my time's elapsed Now all I do is live with so much fate I've wished for this, I've bitched at that I've left behind this little fact You cannot kill what you did not create I've gotta say what I've gotta say And then I swear I'll go away But I can't promise you'll enjoy the noise I guess I'll save the best for last My future seems like one big past You're left with me 'cause you left me no choice (I push my fingers into my) eyes It's the only thing that slowly stops the ache If the pain goes on, I'm not gonna make it! Put me back together or separate the skin from bone Leave me all the pieces, then you can leave me alone Tell me the reality is better than the dream But I found out the hard way - nothing is what it seems (I push my fingers into my) eyes It's the only thing that slowly stops the ache But it's made of all the things I have to take Jesus it never ends, it works it's way inside If the pain goes on, I'm not gonna make it! All I've got - all I've got is insane (I push my fingers into my) eyes It's the only thing that slowly stops the ache But it's made of all the things I have to take Jesus it never ends, it works it's way inside If the pain goes on, I'm not gonna make it! All I've got - all I've got is insane -------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- The Opium of the People Watch those idiosyncrasies Watch all the idiots fall on me Getting out of ways to get outta the way Take another shot just to stay the same But I need some balance - Back it off Fill your lungs 'til it makes you cough Tell me everything's gonna be alright 'Cause I don't think I'll make it through tonight The only way - Is all the way Oh - my - God It's judgement day and I'm not prepared Everybody out there's running scared So - Take a little bit off the top I don't care, just make it stop I won't give another soul... to you I won't give another life... to you You have to stop Stop! Do one thing and say something cryptic But the styles always clash One thing I know for sure The hypothetical won't work anymore One wrong move and they will pound! My nails are tight inside my wrists This sacrament is sacrilege and sentimental Deity experimental - Faith is accidental I won't give another soul... to you I won't give another life... to you I won't give another thought... to you I won't give anymore of my hope... to you -------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Circle Give me the dust of my fathers Stand on the face of the ancients Bare the secret flesh of time itself Follow me... I've come so far, I'm behind again Follow me... I Wish so hard, I'm there again Follow me... All that I wanted were things I had before All that I needed, I never needed more All of my questions are answers to my sins And all of my endings are waiting to begin I know the way, but I faulter I can't be afraid of my patience There's a sacred place Razel keeps safe Follow me... I've seen so much I'm blind again Follow me... I feel so bad I'm alive again Follow me... All that I wanted were things I had before All that I needed, I never needed more All of my questions are answers to my sins And all of my endings are waiting to begin -------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Welcome I am a product - of your conduct The uncontrollable urges that made me Have made us all - Are you proud? Do you even care? You taught us all to lie - that's how we made it here You should've buried the truth with your secrets But you were far to impressed with your pretense Now as far as I know, I don't know anything 'Cause you made damn sure I wasn't anything Distractions, reactions The only way to go is to go away Discarded, retarded Before I let you go, you have to let me Clawed away from human clay We are the broken shards, the art disarray Before you condemn, you rape them, feed us meconium Stunt our growth from our souls to our throats - cut! You shouldn't wall us up with your apathy But you did - now you're only growing enemies This is the catalyst, the alpha, the first breed 'Cause you made damn sure - Now we're everything Distractions, reactions The only way to go is to go away Discarded, retarded Before I let you go, you have to let me Much to my surprise, I will wake up And follow the path of the ones I am made of But this time... I won't give in I will save you from my sins Ensconced... in all that's wrong I slam you shut... I can only take so much How many times do I have to mistreat you? Constantly biting my hand as I feed you Maybe now you'll understand severity I'll sum it up with the best amount of brevety Welcome to the transformation Welcome to annihilation Welcome to the man that wanted everything but couldn't have it! Distractions, reactions The only way to go is to go away Discarded, retarded Before I let you go, you have to let me Much to my surprise, I will wake up And follow the path of the ones I am made of But this time... I won't give in I will save you from my sins ------------------------------------------------------------------------------------ Vermilion She seems dressed in all the rings... of past fatalities So fragile, yet so devious - she continues to see climatic hands that press her temples and my chest Enter the night that she came home - forever Oh... She is everything and more, the solemn hypnotic My dahlia, bathed in possesion - she is home to me I get nervous, perverse, when I see her, it's worse But the stress is astounding It's now or never, she's coming home - forever Oh... She's the only one that makes me sad Hard to say what caught my attention Fixed and crazy - aphid attraction Carve my name in my face - to recognize Such a pheromone cult to terrorize I won't let this build up inside of me... I'm a slave and I am a master No restraints and unchecked collectors I exist to my need - to self-oblige She is something in me - that I despise I won't let this build up inside of me... She isn't real - I can't make her real -------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Pulse of the Maggots I fight for the unconventional My right and it's unconditional I can only be as real as i can The disadvantage is I never knew the plan this isn't just a way to be a martyr I can't walk alone any longer I fight for the ones who can't fight and if I lose, at least I tried! We are the new diabolic We are the bitter bucolic If I have to give my life, you can have it We are the pulse of the maggots I won't be the inconsequential I won't be the wasted potential I can make it as severe as I can Until you realize, you'll never take a stand It isn't just a one-sided version We've dealt with a manic subversion I won't let the truth be perverted And I won't leave another victim deserted We are the new diabolic We are the bitter bucolic If I have to give my life, you can have it We are the pulse of the maggots (Do you understand?) Yes Say it again, say it again (We won't die) We fight 'til no one can fight us We live and no one can stop us We pull when we're pushed too far And the advantage is, the bottom line is We never had to fight in the first place We only had to spit back in their face We won't walk alone any longer What doesn't kill us only makes us stronger We are the new diabolic We are the bitter bucolic If I have to give my life, you can have it We are the pulse of the maggots (Do you understand?) Yes Say it again, say it again (We won't die) -------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Before I Forget Stapled shut - Inside an outside world And I'm sealed in tight - Bizarre but right at home I'm claustrophobic - Closing in And I'm catastrophic - Not again I'm smeared across the page and doused in gasoline I wear you like a stain, yet I'm the one who's obscene Catch me up in all your sordid little insurrections I've got no time to lose - I'm just caught up in all the cattle Fray the strings... Throw the shapes... Hold your breath... Listen I am a world before I am a man I was a creature before I could stand I will remember before I forget Before I forget that I'm ripped across the ditch and settled in the dirt And I wear you like a stitch, yet I'm the one who's hurt Pay attention to your twisted little indiscretions I've got no right to win - I'm just caught up in all the battles Locked in clutch... Pushed in place... Hold your breath... Listen I am a world before I am a man I was a creature before I could stand I will remember before I forget Before I forget that My end, it justifies my means All I ever do is delay My every attempt to evade The end of the road and my end It justifies my means All I ever do is delay My every attempt to evade The end of the road I am a world before I am a man I was a creature before I could stand I will remember before I forget Before I forget that -------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Vermilion Part 2 She seemed dressed in all of me Stretched across my shame All the torment and the pain Leaked through and covered me I'd do anything to have her to myself Just to have her for myself Now I don't know what to do I don't know what to do When she makes me sad She is everything to me The unrequited dream A song that no one sings The unattainable She's a myth that I have to believe in All I need to make it real is one more reason I don't know what to do I don't know what to do When she makes me sad But I won't let this build up inside of me I catch in my throat Choke Torn into pieces I won't - no I don't wanna be this But I won't let this build up inside of me She isn't real I can't make her real -------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- The Nameless Pathetic/BENIGN/Accept it/UNDERMINE Your opinion/MY JUSTIFICATION Happy/SAFE/Servant/CAGED Malice/UTTER WEAKNESS No toleration - invade COMMITED/Enraged/ADMIT IT Don't condescend/DON'T EVEN DISAGREE Destroy/DECAY/Disappoint/DELAY You've suffered then/NOW SUFFER UNTO ME Obsession - take another look Remember - every chance you took Decide - either live with me Or give up - any thought you had of being free (Don't go) I never wanted anybody more than I wanted you... (I know) The only thing I ever really loved was hate... Anyone/NO/Anything/YES/Anyway/FALL/Anybody/MINE/ Anybody/TELL ME I want/YOU/I need/YOU/I'll have/YOU/I won't/ LET ANYBODY HAVE YOU Obey/ME/Believe/ME/Just trust/ME/Worship/ME/ Live for/ME Be grateful/NOW/Be honest/NOW/Be precious/NOW/ Be mine/JUST LOVE ME Posession - feed my only vice Confession - I won't tell you twice Decide - either die for me Or give up - any chance you had of being free (Don't go) I never wanted anybody more than I wanted you... (I know) The only thing I ever really loved was hurting you... (Don't go) I never wanted anybody more than I wanted you... (I know) The only thing I ever really loved was hate... Stay inside the hole - let me take control Dominate You are nothing more - you are something less Innocent Something has to give - something has to break Omnipresent Fingers in your skin - let me savage in You deserve it (Don't go) I never wanted anybody more than I wanted you... (I know) The only thing I ever really loved was hurting you... (Don't go) I never wanted anybody more than I wanted you... (I know) The only thing I ever really loved was hate... You're mine (I KNOW WHO YOU ARE) -------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- The Virus of Life I can see you but you can't see me I could touch you and you wouldn't even feel me Wait a second and you'll settle down I'm just waiting 'til you really let your guard down You're relaxed, you're sublime, you're amazing You don't even know the danger that you're facing If I'm quiet, I'll slide up behind you And if you hear me, I'll enjoy trying to find you I've been with you all day I'm trying to stay calm I'm impatient and it's really hard to breathe I'm going to empty you and fill you in with me Just keep the violence down Not yet - don't make a sound Oh, God I'm feeling it it's reaching fever pitch My skin is caving in My heart is driving out No mercy, no remorse Let nature take it's course Watching - bring me to my knees Waiting - I am your disease Lover - Set my symptom free Covered - You won't feel a thing You can't stop me I'm sweating through my veins I'm trying to hold on It's unbearable, it's almost worse for me I'm gonna tear you apart and make you see - make you see Watching - bring me to my knees Waiting - I am your disease Lover - Set my symptom free Covered - You won't feel a thing You can't stop me This is the virus, the virus of life This is inside us, the crisis, the knife This is the virus, the virus of life This is inside us, the crisis, the knife It's almost time to play/it's time to be afraid I can't control the pain/I can't control in vain Oh God, I'm ready now/you're almost ready now I'm gonna love you now/I'm gonna put you down I see you in the dark/I see you all the way I see you in the light/I see you plain as day I wanna touch your face/I wanna touch your soul I wanna wear your face/I wanna burn your soul Watching - bring me to my knees Waiting - I am your disease Lover - Set my symptom free Covered - You won't feel a thing You can't stop me This is the virus, the virus of life -------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Danger, Keep Away We too feel alone That place in my mind Is that space that you call mine That place in my mind Is that space that you call mine Where have I been all this time? Lost, enslaved, fatal decline. I've bee waiting for this to fold, but But pieces are only as good as the whole! I sever myself from my whole life, I cut out the only thing that was right! What if I never saw you again? I'd die right next to you in the end. That place in my mind Is that space that you call mine That place in my mind Is that space that you call mine I wont let you walk away Without hearing what I have to say Without hearing what I have to say Without hearing what I have to say